I have had a bit of a sad start to the week, on Sunday afternoon my Gran passed away, all very tragic and emotionally draining. My aunt and mother are taking the hit hard, luckily she got to see all 3 of her children on Sunday morning where she joked with them and had a bit of a laugh. On Sunday afternoon I got the call I have been dreading for the last couple of months, my aunt was on the line frantically telling me that my gran had collapsed and couldn’t get up, I got my mother and raced down there. When I got to her flat as soon as I got through the door my gran was lying on the floor, head on a pillow with my aunt trying to wake her up, I immediately new she was gone, her lips were blue and she wasn’t responding. I tried to feel for a pulse and also checked to see if she was breathing she wasn’t.....I had known as soon as I hit the door and had just confirmed it, she was gone. Watching my aunt break down wasn’t an easy thing for me, my family are pretty strong and it was something we don’t normally see, my sister arrived a couple of minutes later and she took over from there, my brother, cousin and I began consoling both our aunt and mother, we took them downstairs so they didn’t have to watch all the heartbreaking stuff. The paramedics only arrived and hour later (fuckers) and I had to hold back on beating the shit out of them. They confirmed what I had already known and left. My sister arranged for the Doves guys to come and collect my gran and I took my aunt and cousin back to my place with my mother. The funeral is tomorrow at 11, it is going to be a very long and hard day for me and my family, I have had a sore heart since that tragic afternoon, that coupled with headaches and all the other emotional stress hasn’t been great. I wasn’t going to post this here, but I need a place to vent, my Boss has been great about the whole thing and for that I am thankful. The timing of this isn’t good either being so close to Christmas, it all makes for a pretty sad December.

Anyway I guess life goes on, the coming weeks will be difficult for my mother and aunt as they start realizing all the small things that my gran used to do, taking their coppers, eating the Christmas pies, waking up 4am in the morning to start house work before her maid got in.....rest in peace gran, we will all miss you terribly!